{ Getting used to the pain }

Please help me so that I can say goodbye to everyone and bid farewell with a smile

The moment I’ve always dreamed about breaks down and after everyone I believed would stay by me, leaves

The pieces of my memory if among them, just one, just one moment became strength to me

Sometimes when you realize there is no one by your side, you know it’s time to learn how to face things alone

They believe in my fake smiles and get suprised when I say I’m depressed

Am I not so good at hiding and controlling my feelings or are you just another liar saying you will help me if I tell you the truth?

( H E A R T B R O K E N )

I don't deserve this pain
널 좋아해

In case you go far away, in case you might dislike me I wanted to tell you but my lips would not move In case you go far away, I am scared What if our relationship gets really awkward and we grow far apart? -Syu



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Sunday, 2 February 2014 | 21:39 | 2 comments

Hi guys, how are you? It's been a long time since I updated right? How are you guys? I miss you.

Last year, I have a really bad luck. So this year, I hope I have my luck back. Lol what I am talking about right now. Last year, miss A and miss Q decided to make a new friendship((not really; they just came to me and says sorry and i miss you and loads of shit)) with me. So yeah I'm okay with that. I wish everything goes fine. So thats why, I apologized them. And whenever they whatsapp-ed and said things like;

"Babe, I miss you." 
"Can we hang out together? Its been a long time you know.

"Girl, how about you join me this saturday? I want to shopping."

And etcetcetc. "Wow, they're so shameless." That's what comes to my mind.

Seriously, I'm tired living like this dude. Okay I admit it. Living like this is fun. I have a lot of friends. I can go to anywhere I want. But I'm a bad girl. I don't listened to my mom and dad. I feel bad. Like really bad.

Sometimes, I wish I can live alone; by my own. But I think I can't. It's too much. Can you imagine living without your parents by your side? Without your family by your side? If you can, thumbs up for you dude. I can't. Totally can't. Yeah sure, they're annoying sometimes. But hey, they're your family. They loves you. That's why they asked you to do good things.

I just don't understand... some people. Well, included my sister. They're so fucking complicated. Selfish. Too selfish. But I don't know what to do anymore. I tried so hard to persuaded my sister to listened to my parents. No, to my father.

I guess, I should shut up. And continue this boring life right? Don't bother about anything else. So bye guys.

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